Happiness and Success

It is hard to remember my past how was it  in childhood. But it could be brought back fond memory with some activities when i was in the primary school. Sitting among 100 students, in a class, on self carrying plastic seat in a windowless “khaprail (खपरैल)” room, reflect the image of a government school from there  i started my educational journey. The system was punctual without considering the opening and closing time. We never had to know the time table and schedule because it depends when the “Mastersahab” comes and what he like to teach? But once it started  we can’t escape  until/unless either you reprove your  2^nd after break  or the “mastersahab” decided its enough for  today. Getting late and not being admitted in the 1^st attendance had the advantage of great happiness and escaping anytime.  It was a hard rule which was being regulated with the help of a round and long rod namely “Dukh-haran- jee (दुखहरण  जी )”. But any rule can be violated in some ways!!!!. We often used to take a break for 5 and 10 minutes are so called short and long physical activities without a real reason. Not having the toilette facility was the bonus. And now we were free for hours to do all that we planned for today. आम  का बगीचा,  मटर की खेत , हरा चना , गन्ना,  मक्का , अमरुद , "river to swim",  large open space to play, and many more whatever we can find, and anything we want. We did never stuck by so called jealous and competition among friend. And even i think, the school never declared the position of the students although; a very simple sentence “all are passed”. It may be a prevalent topic to debate but i always borrowed this value and act in the same way so far. Although i want to be top but never took it seriously, and thus never stood (he he he....). Anyways, it was a pleasant and memorable life that brings back fond memory and i miss since i had to leave the school. Until recently, i was listening a interview of a great  actor “Anoopam  kher” who  supports  the fact that village life is much more interesting than in a city. In a common word, i can say “in village; a child lives  & enjoy his childhood completely . You can go anywhere, you can look everywhere, the village is all yours. You know everyone and everyone know you.
Moving from childhood to teenager is sufficient time to think about career and success. Generally a student casts his thought and idea into aim in this period. Parents, relatives and teachers share their experiences to come out in a unique way. In most of the cases a boy fights for a dream that was somehow unfulfilled by his parents. Fortunately, being a son of an unsuccessful man in his career (a failure "Politician", and thus; an unfocused "Practitioner"), I had never been imposed on  any bench-mark. Not being over hoped  was the advantages of thinking  own my own. But what should I take in consideration? Yes, there was a term “ सरकारी नौकरी” had most respect and influence in my society. Whatever of its level doesn’t matter? I got motivated by primary teachers. It was a wonder how they mange school and their personal stuffs like; घर, दुकान , खेती and everything altogether.  I, secretly, set primary school teacher as a career alternative. Secretly because, friends may use to make fun of me; हुंह!!! मास्टर  बनेगा वो भी ऐसी पढाई से. And yes, it was not easy to qualify teaching exam. It  was the time when government offers countable vacancy  with few seats . It  was a  very popular proverb "भगवान  मिलना  आसन है - नौकरी नहीं ".  We were getting tuition by those who were fighting for it for years.  Anyways, it was just a plan for future which never came in mind seriously because I was badly busy in non-studying activities at high school time. Escaping classes for movies was one of most interesting one. The theatre was about 5 km distance to my school which was covered by bus, running between Patna to Sitamarhi. The contactors can’t dare to charge fare as we were students of MP high school. मस्ती , ड्रामा ,  fight & fun were inherent part of those days. Of course , high school time is most beautiful part in a student  life. We are not controlled as strongly as in primary education. We have no family burden. Our mind and heart are pure. We judge everything beyond cast, religion and money. I think, we never used to evaluate our  friends  on their family reputation. Our all notorious activities are always forgiven on the ground of immaturity.
Getting position in the district in the board exam had given substantial energy to think above the teaching line. Now first time i heard the name of Indian pioneer engineering institute “IIT”. After passing Intermediate from districts' repute “Goyenka college", I considered it  my aim. The second phase of my educational journey had been stated here without proper guidance and support. But I was in hurry. A little success would have given a huge pleasure to me and my family. I can remember the day when I got selected for “Bihar state Polytechnic exam. I was happily moving here and there on the road in Patna. The result strengthened my aim and started a long journey toward IIT. I made 3 abortive attempts for it. Although I got selected twice in Bihar engineering, twice in CBSE engineering (AIEEE) and IIT screening, unable to cross the IIT mains.Finally decided to join a national institute" NIFFT". The life spent at NIFFT could not be summarised in a passage. It needs separate heading. In sum, I can only say it was 4 year long period seems extremely short now. At here I learn to retrieve values from scraps, and be happy and make those living around you. We were always happy and did all whatever we want. Leaving/escaping from classes was still continued and many more can’t explain in this passage. Full scholarship offer to peruse higher study from abroad is award to my hard labor. Being always jealous-less with friends and faithfulness to them under whom I work, worked for  me .
At the end I can summarized myself as a happy man. I don’t know whether I am success or not? I never wanna look on this because I think, success can not be evaluated on absolute scale. It is a relative measurement. You can’t compare your life with those who born with silver spoons. But yes, you can compare happiness. It is a feeling comes with positive mindset and satisfaction. I enjoyed every part of my life since my childhood; at school, at college. Yes, I was happy, I am happy, and I will be happy forever.